What True Recovery Looks Like

I have thought a lot about this blog in the last few months. I don’t know that I have much more to contribute. I loved, loved, loved writing when I felt as though I was healing and possibly helping others on this life-changing, impossible-yet-possible, painful yet empowering journey. Today? I just don’t know. I have found myself feeling less and less affected by the trauma and emotion that Will’s earth-shattering betraying caused. I have felt grounded and serene. Calmer and wiser regarding it all. In short…it is somewhat of a non-issue in our present lives. It is a part of a long, difficult, traumatic and indescribably painful past. But that is where it is in my life right now…the past. I cannot change it. I cannot erase it. I cannot reframe it to make it seem less devastating, it was. It was, and is, what it was and is. And it just no longer matters. I have turned that page and have moved beyond it. It is simply part of who I am now. It is my experience, my growth and a long, difficult process of self-discovery, grace, forgiveness and acceptance which has made me who I am now. Today. Not a victim of my past, but a survivor of unbelievable pain and betrayal. It has refined me, forged me into something better, stronger and more resilient than ever. I would not wish this pain on anyone. I would hope that people everywhere never have the occasion to experience the depth of betrayal that comes with an addicted spouse. But, if they do, I hope and pray that they come out of that refining fire a better person. I hope that I have. I hope that anyone who reads this also understands that it is not only possible, but incredibly life changing (for the better) to withstand the pain and come out on the other side of it feeling stronger, more empowered and wiser. God bless you all for reading, commenting, commiserating and offering endless support and love through the years. I won’t be cancelling or deleting this blog and will check in periodically. Please contact me directly if you wish to chat. So much love and gratitude to all of you!

Leigh ❤️

2 thoughts on “What True Recovery Looks Like

  1. Thank you for this post. I’m so glad to hear you’re in a good place. I’ve been following your journey for some time. Our paths have been very similar, and I am in a similar place as you now. It does few good to have the darkness in the past and be able to have some kind of normal life again. I still write in my journal once in a while but I don’t feel I need the outlet as much as I once did. Best wishes to you, and I hope you will keep writing from time to time to let us know that life just keeps getting better!

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  2. Survivor. Stronger. More resilient. Serene. Calm. Empowered. Wiser. (Your words.) So good to hear this. I’m sure you’ve heard the phrase “post-traumatic growth” — well — there you are! Thanks for sharing your journey.

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